Anything is Possible

Oh journal,

  How I have neglected thee. It's late right now and I have a test in the morning. My brain is fried. No more studying for now at least. I'm gonna get some shut eye soon. I need to be more self motivated.... I GOT THIS! hahaha.

Boys, I don't know what to do about them. My feelings jumping all over the place. Shouldn't let it be too much of a distraction.


Uhhh.. yeah. I guess I'll be neglecting you a bit more. Until next time!


Be good.

When you gotta take a crap as it's just about time to go to school? That's what I gotta do, right now. ><!!!

New semester
4 classes
Part-time job
On a mission to find an internship
Still attempting to get a motorcycle
Active in DSP
Mmmmmm. Hopefully seeing more previous faces along with the new!
p90x!

Intenseeee. Time for school! Oh how I love it. 

Schools tomorrow! Tomorrow tomorrow! I hope I like my classes and understand it. First semester being an active brother! Eee! ;D haha. Kinda nervous but I think it'll be okie.

Got super drunk this past weekend. Bad bad. I went to Motif for Jason's birthday and I got plastered. But it happened. Thank goodness I got home okay. Annie and Christian helped a lot. Thanks guys! I went to Loft with my cousin the next day. That was cool too. SUPER crowded! I felt like a sardine.

Saw Madelynne today. She's soooo cute! A little over a month.


mm.. that's all. I really need to buy my books! AHHH!  -_-

I haven't been here in a long time! Sorry livejournal, i've neglected you. :[ But! Since I have nothing to do at the moment, I will type. My birthday just passed and that was exciting indeed. I've been dreading becominig 21 because I'm now officially independent from my mom. I'll still get financial aid from school but I don't have insurance anymore. D: Scary! Gotta see if I can hop onto my sister's plan or something soon.

The upsides to being 21 is pretty much partying. I don't have that kind of money though. I already feel that my pocket is getting smaller. :L That's sad too. I guess it'll be a good thing when we go back to school. I need to learn to say no to these outings now since I'm able to go. hahaha. I don't know how people can get drunk day after day. This was my first time doing it three days in a row. I was exhausted! But nontheless very fun. Hahahahaha. I played beer pong for the first time too! ;P

Hmmmm... what elsee. I'm trying to get more into accessories. ahah. Rings are cute, it's just the cheap ones leave a mark your finger after you've had it on for awhile. I wash my hands a lot so I always need to take it off and put it back on.

I need to get my books for school! And figure out how and/or where I'm going to park! O_O My gawh, procrastination againnn

I've been trying to buy more shoes. Mostly flats, but yesterday I ended up buying a pair of vans. I wear 3 1/2 in kids. Tehehe. We'll see if anything else comes up.

I have once again done nothing to look for a new job/intern. Failure on me. I need to talk to an advisor also for graduation. Get all my paperwork together. It's going to be tough this year. O_o. BLEHHH! 

I get easily infatuated when I see someone attractive. Good or bad? I don't know but it keeps me occupied. I guess it makes me feel a little bit better since I'm not as concerned or anxious about a certain someone.  Whooo.

Going to work 7 hours today and tomorrow.. horray. 

I look in my closet and there's a handful of stuff I don't wear anymore. Trying to make more use of them. Go polos!

I should be happy but there are times where sad emotions overwhelm my thoughts. I drop but I know in the end I'm the one who has to pick myself up.

I'll overcome thisssssssssssssssssssssssssss!

Happy Birthday Steven on the 8th!

Happy Birthday Bon on the 9th!

Ah, we're getting old.

Scaryyyyyyyyy!

The end. :]

Good morning! I did better than I thought in one of my classes. Horray. My GPA went up a tiny bit. But dang, I gotta bring that up hecka. :L 

Yesterday I went to Great America with Reggie, Jason, Linda, Andrew, and Sierra. It was nice to go because I haven't in such a long time but I had a headache majority of the time. It really hot, then really cold. Haha. Mans. We went from 3-8. I was eshausteddddd. Then it took us forever to figure out where to eat. Decided to go to Milpitas Square in the end. And then more pondering when we got there. Finally decided on China Palace. I was so full. Ughhh. 

Being sick in the summer sucksssss! BLEH.

I don't know what happened but I whatever I did killed my computer. :[ Sad sad. Have to transfer files and I didn't realize how many pictures and songs I have. It's going to take awhile. -_-

I did aerobics today! and worked my abs while standing up. Fudgeeee, my stomach looks worse though. Cry.

I haven't seen my mommy and she lives right there. Pathetic. I'm going to visit her today. She hasn't seen my new hair I think. That's.... a week and a half. EEEK! MOMMY!!! D:

My birthday is coming up and I haven't really thought of anything....... pooooooopie.

I want to make more money and save more.

I buy scratchers but don't get much out of it. I just recently started. Haha, feels good when I get a few bucks, which are then used to buy more... fail

I think I look better with medium length hair. Too late though. Hope it grows up fast.

I need to be more proactive.

Plan on taking the kids to the movies today. What else can we do? Maybe hike or something.

My hemet, jacket, and gloves are collecting dust and moth balls. I gotta buy a bike soon.

Not having a legit vaccuum sucks.

Haven't worn my glasses in awhile. I can feel it cause i get a headache if I wear it too long. Weird. I was so dependent on it thruout pledging, hecka blind.

I hope Jason plans the camping trip. I wanna go campinggggg.

Kinda looking forward to retreat with the fraternity.

I'm not ready to be 21. I like being under my mom's care and the benefits. If I made more I'd feel okay, but...  I don't make much. AH!

Gotta make a dentist appointment before medicare kicks me off.

MoreToCome.Hopefully it's about what I've done and not what needs to get done. HAAHHH. Cheerio!

I feel so drained this week, and the weather is not helping one bit. I hecka knocked out yesterday at 1030 or whatever and didn't get up till 8 today. Oh well, hopefully I'm a little more productive today. o_o

Alright, after school I rushed home and went on the computer to look at hair pictures. Then I went to a salon, the one on capitol, Jenny's nail and hair salon blah blah, and got my haircuttttttt! :D It's  a rather big change. Some girl started it but then the other guy, Tony took over cause he had more experience. I had to wait a little but I didn't mind. I just chilled and enjoyed the beginning of my summer. HEHEHE. I'm feeling good. Well, I have a headache but I'll take an advil in a sec. Haha. Wonder what I'll do today. Prolly take a nap first. Guys wanted to possibly go bowling. We'll see. Awww! <3 SUMMMERRR!

There's so much I want to do. Lately though, I'll be able to go a day with little sleep but then the next I'm exhausted. I feel that I'm wasting away my time. It's also been my fault. I've been a total girl over someone who won't look my way. I keep hanging on the .000000001 bit of hope. I was being emo and just staying home. I didn't feel like going out even though I knew it would make me feel better. It's summer, i want to do a lot of stuff but I'm feeling so... blah at the moment. I'm trying to push myself but t's just working. Where's my drive?!?!!? Goodness.

I'll be working a bit more this summer. Whoot.... I want a raise! It's almost been a year. Sheeeeee better do something about it.

HM... it sucks having all this energy to want to see someone, hug them, cuddle with them, and not be able to. I could divert this energy to someone else but... naw. So all my anxiety has been directed to one of the members of Big Bang. TaeYang? Drool. I wouldn't mind having a boyfriend like that. HAHAHAH! Sigh. Ah well's I'm sure someone's out there. So I've become a giddy little girl once again.

WELPS! An hour before work. Let's see if I'm gonna be taking a nap or doing something more productive.

I heard on the radio but not his name. It was when I got a text at work that I felt a slight pain in my heart. Michael Jackson passed away. WOW. I was never a big fan but I think was made me feel that 0.000001% of connection was many years ago my sister wrote a letter to him and she got an autograph. Okay, so i don't know if it was truly his writing but when that package came home and we saw his photo with his autograph, we were ecstatic. I don' t know where that thing is but maybe my sister will look for it or something. DANNNNG. D: Sadness.

But he lived his life. He made a great impact. There may be people who don't care and those who feel sorrow, the fact is that we all knew him.

Thank you for exposing us to such great music and talent. <3

We threw a supah bomb baby shower on Saturday. Hands down the best, out of the 2 I've been to. hahahaha. But I hear they aren't that great so... yeah. Started at noon. lots of food. Drinking. Games. Oh man, great games. The first was everyone had a necklace. The goal is to steal other peoples'. How? If you catch them crossing their arms, legs, or say the word baby, you get their necklace. No matter if its 1 or 10, you get them all. It was a battle between everyone for 2 hours. The last 25 minutes, it was no cursing. I don't cuss so I was good. I lost though cause I was occupied. Eric visited. It's okay, the person who won got a gag gift. hahaha. Then there was dress the baby. 3 dolls, 3 pieces of clothing, 3 contestants. We had about rounds and winners played each other. And then multitasking. ahaha. You have to hold the cell phone on one ear, a baby, and hang socks on the clothes line. Another relay on who could do it the most in a short amount of time.

It was all a lot of fun. Very creative and entertaining. I was the youngest of the elders and the oldest of the kids. I had a good time. running around drunk, playing tag, the whole shi-bang. Knocked out heckaa early though. Dang. I got a hangover at 3am. No fun. But I did my thang, took 2 advils, and went back to bed. Felt good in the morning. :D

Studying, yesterday I was out allll day. OH! First i went to say happy father's day to dad and then went to the library. It wasn't toooo productive but having other people to study with helps motivate you. Repitition does the trick. I don't have the patience to do that. After the library a few classmates and I went to Annie's place to study some more. DUDEEEE! Mike has the craziest device everrrr! An electronic pen that records! But no only that. if you click a certain part on the page, it plays exactly at the moment you wrote it!!! OMG you gotta see it. It blows my mind. Funny though, he has the craziest techonology but isn't techy at all. haha. These study sessions are nice. :]

Happy Birthday Tom Pan!
The food was de-lish. I love my sister's group of friends. They make me feel part of the clique too. <3 for-reals. I wish I had a clique like that. Well.. naw. That's just depressing, wishing it. It'll come. Or. There are cliques that like around already, I'm just yet to be placed in it. ;D Any dibs? hahaha. I think I'm a floater. It's cool cause I know lots of people but sometimes sad cause that close bond isn't quite there, ya know? but it's okay. I'll find those people sooner or later. I already have a couple.
MMMM raw meat. Rather interesting. I hope I don't get sick from it. hahaha. but dinner was bomb. :D 


I've been in the dumps recently. My mood changes real fast. Things happen way too fast. But I have people who are there and support me. I need to stop trying to do everything on my own. So, thank you guys, for cheering me on and giving words of wisdom. I may beat myself up at times and think crazy thoughts, cause hey, girls are crazy. At least I am at times. I'm better than that and I musn't lose myself. I'm sure whatever happens will be for the best. So, FIGHT ON! and MOVE FORWARD! Dude, I really need to get a motorcycle.

Okay so homework is due on Monday, But I should start it, NOW. I'm going to die this weekend if I don't I already know. Midterm is next wednesday. Motha effah. I'm scareeed! Eeek. Hm. 9:44. Oh, getting side tracked. haha.

My phone is being whack. No fun at all. This hasn't happened to me before. I already feel a bit disconnected. Baddd.


Each day feels quite long. I sit here alllll day. :L

WELL! Today I went out a bit with Matthew. We got our toes and nails done. Sadly my toes got messed up. I wonder if they'll fix it if I go back tomorrow. I hope so.... I gotta call. haha. -_-

I'm daydreaming a lot. Or pondering. Just zoning out. It's rather... meh. Not the greatest but whatev, keeps my mind busy.

I went indoor rock climbing! Today with Jennifer Hong and Darlene Keo. Plus my two younger siblings. DUDEEEE I haven't seen darlene in foreverrr! It was great seeing her again. It feels like a fat reunion! I keep seeing people from back in the day. it's greatt. makes me happy. :]

Rock climbing is cool. A workout. I think I can pick this up. haha.

Oh, guess I didn't finish my post. Haha. I hecka fell asleep last night. Yeah I know right? On a FRIDAY? Oh well. The activity took a lot outta me and I didn't want to have to think of what to do.

But yeh! That's basically it. Today is kinda.. gloomy lookin. Meh. Just gonna get ready and make the most of my day since yesterday I didn't do anything in the morning.

Whoo, didn't think I'd feel the way I do. I am getting caught up in all this pretty quick. I know I shouldn't but I can't help it. I try to just enjoy the feeling and keep reminding myself that it really is okay to feel the way I feel and not force to hold anything back.

Just need to keep my head up and look forward. Take each day a step at a time. I got this!

On another note, I already feel that sunday is going to suck with lots of homework. Haha procrastination mode already in motion.

I want to buy new clothes and stuff. I don't have much room in my closet at the moment though and I know I don't need anything.


hm hm hm. Iono just felt like I should post something. Hahaha. POST POST POSTPOST!

Awww, little sister graduated today. :] I'm very proud of her. Good job sis!!!! Now it's time for high school. :D You're gonna have a blast.



Love ya lil sister!

Yeah my paper sucked. But I'm not the only one. haha. Dude, I wish writing was my thing. I mean I like typing and chatting and all that fun stuff, but essays and research papers? NO. it makes me cringe and my stomach turn. I need to really get over that cause I know I'm just adding unnecessary stress to myself.

I have a lot of homework this weekend. Wonder if I'll manage my time. I've been pretty bad at that, LIKE RIGHT NOW. Sheesh. 

I think I'll be here more often. Haha. Finally got some other pictures besides the one of me. Yeyy. I should be doing homework but you know me, procrastinator! :L VERY BAD. And I'm kinda sick too. Tsk tsk. right!? Bleh. Month of June. Quite fast. I'm just blabbing. Fine fine, I'll do my homework... or attempt it at least.

Not really. It's Piano day. I like Monday work days. Thing is though, the kids are almost out for summer so I don't know if I'll still be taking them. Yeah, this is what I do, go online and do my own thing for an hour and a half. I sometimes fall asleep. I try attempting my homework too but it just doesn't work. 

Slept well last night, wish I had more hours. Kinda fell asleep in class. It was hard to concentrate. Annie save me by giving me some of her coffee. I'm still pretty pooped right now. Saw Eric dearest while walking Toby. Tehehee!

I went outside to go pick up the kids and there was ambulance next door. Someone was on a stretcher. I think he got hit or something.. Pretty weirrrddddd. Then a cop came when I left. Crazies!

My book for comm100w STILL hasn't come in. I'm getting anxious. I'm behind in reading that stuff. :[ nooooo! I keep procrastinating on all my homeworks. We all know it's bad but we can't help but do it, over and over again.

My throat is feeling a bit sore. And It sucks. I don't know if I'm getting sick. It happened in class. Annie!!! What did you put in the coffee!?! Am I going to die!? Hah, just kidding. Blehhh. I really gotta motivate myself more to do like school..... ><